I haven't posted anything here for merely 4 months. I miss writing, I really do. I'm not busy or anything is just that I dont know what to share. I have so many things to talk about but I'm scared if I open up too much I will end up saying things I will regret later. You know what I mean right?
There's nothing new about me. I'm still that silly pathetic girl who has been doing nothing good with my life. I swear I am. So many shitty things happened for these past few months, that I felt my depression and anxiety got worsen. I think too much & when I cannot handle it, I'm having my break down moments.
So lets talk about my university admission. For your information, its almost a year since I'm done with my diploma. I heard a lot of people talking "Why I haven't continued my degree yet?" and bla bla bla. So first thing first, I have to say that I didnt get accepted to any universities at the moment because I accidentally requested for the wrong universities instead of my own, bla bla bla cut the story short, I went to UiTM for appeal & they said that I have to request for the next intake. I also got an offer to study Operational Management at UITM Dungun. Apparently, I rejected the offer. Most people think that I made a stupid decision but I think its for my own good.
Reason why I rejected that offer because
1) Mum & dad are currently away, they were performing haji at Mecca so I was left to take care of my brother who actually just finished his UPSR.
2) The course is my last resort. So when I went to the HEP at UITM Shah Alam for appeal, the person who worked there adviced me that its better if I wait for the next intake & apply for the course that I really want since I am eligible for the course. But since I made a mistake for filling the form wrongly, I didn't received any place in UITM.
To be honest, I really thought about this matter very deeply. I also asked for my sister opinion, and she also asked me to wait for the next intake. It was indeed shitty at that moment, but when I rethink about it, I felt like there is something good waiting for me. I dont know what it is, but I feel that something good is waiting for me.
