I made a decision to pour my sadness and agony into this one post. I might gonna regret this later for what outcome might comes after this, but I believe everyone has their own fair share of broken heart story. I guess.
It always that one person that I always have feeling with. But no matter what I do, or no matter where I go, deep down he will never look at me the same way I look at him. I always have pure admiration towards him, but I know he will never feel the same.
(One day, I'm going to laugh reading this post again while cuddling with my husband.)
It starts with some stupid crush during high school. Like how Ginny Weasley had a crush on Harry Potter during her first year in Hogwarts. But at least at the end of the story, she end up marrying Harry, while I'm on the other hand will never even get a chance to be with him. I try to find other people but it just hard when my feeling is stronger than everything.
I made this post not to ask him to love me, I bet he will never read this. I don't want him to. Maybe, this is just some silly crush. Maybe one day, I deserved someone who loves me. I hope he will find someone better for him too. From now on, I will try to block any kind of feeling that might transport to him again, I had enough loving someone who will never love me the same.
I guess, this a best farewell for you.
Have a splendid day,
A boy that I've loved before.
