First thing I saw was, my high school pictures. And everyone who used to study there and rushed memories coming in. I saw a picture of someone I try to forget. I managed to do so perfectly. I saw the note he wrote for me. I know damn well that was his handwriting. But at the end of the note, he wrote someone else name. I wonder, for once, if he actually knows what kind of effect that he did to me. Back then. Right now, the only thing that left me is blank. I still care about him. I wish nothing else bad thing happened to him. Its nothing more than that, its just a caring feeling from a friend.
Then, I saw pictures of my friends. People that I used to call my bestfriends. I push them away, that's my problem. I pushed them away, because I dont wanna hurt them when I was hurting. Clever things for me to do. It used to be so fun back then, when you don't get any feelings involved. Right now, its just a ship-wrecked. No matter how you tried to fix it, the boat is already sinking.
Next, I saw some letters from someone who I still keep close to my heart. Not a guy. But a sister. I couldn't read that letters, because some of them brought the memories that I don't want to remember. And how she used to hurt me. And how much, I, unintentionally hurt her. She's always so kind to me but nevertheless, as a human being, she didn't realized that she hurt me a lot. Now she's already become a person that I look up to. She's more successful than I am. She's more happier than me, I believe. I wish that no matter what she has been through, god always gave her the happiness that she's looking for.
And I also found some cards & notes & birthday wishes from some of my friends. ( I have a lot of friends.) And that makes me happy, because I realized no matter how asshole I am for some people, I also mean a lot to some people who actually cares about me. And that just make me realized that, we are human, we can never run from mistakes.
So that was spring cleaning is about. You found the tiny pieces of reality in your past, you learned from the past event, and you move on with your life.
And you change to a better person.
Next, I saw some letters from someone who I still keep close to my heart. Not a guy. But a sister. I couldn't read that letters, because some of them brought the memories that I don't want to remember. And how she used to hurt me. And how much, I, unintentionally hurt her. She's always so kind to me but nevertheless, as a human being, she didn't realized that she hurt me a lot. Now she's already become a person that I look up to. She's more successful than I am. She's more happier than me, I believe. I wish that no matter what she has been through, god always gave her the happiness that she's looking for.
And I also found some cards & notes & birthday wishes from some of my friends. ( I have a lot of friends.) And that makes me happy, because I realized no matter how asshole I am for some people, I also mean a lot to some people who actually cares about me. And that just make me realized that, we are human, we can never run from mistakes.
So that was spring cleaning is about. You found the tiny pieces of reality in your past, you learned from the past event, and you move on with your life.
And you change to a better person.
