I had a rough start during my teenage life. Maybe,its my fault & maybe it isn't. Maybe because I get carried away with my feelings.
But the point is, I still thinking about my past. I still think I have some unfinished business with the people that I used to hurt or people who hurt me. Because, I still keep thinking about it until now. Although, it has been almost three years.
I forgive them I do, but there's a slight feelings that keep bugging me all these while which are regrets. Regrets for knowing them, make friends with them, say stuff I don't mean it when I'm mad, why I did that and etc.
I just want to live my life the way I wanted. I wanted to feel normal & carefree. I have so many hopes & dreams for my future. But deep down I know, I am not truly happy because like I mentioned just now. Too many unfinished business. Although it has been three years, since its happened, I still feels my feet are still stuck in the past. While the rest have continued their life the way they pleased, and here I am still living in shattered, broken into pieces.
I am a broken glass that need to be fixed.
Maybe I have been too harsh on myself. I try to take all the blames because I feel that I am obligated to what happened.
Maybe, the answer to all my problem is that.
I should probably just forgive myself. Maybe that's the only answer I have been searching for all this while. For three goddamn years.
